not my own muscles

eyeball minimal

Working sleep

Sleeping hot is sharing your muscles in spacial orientation.

Proprideception and equilibrioception are less common known senses in space and gravity.

I stick in place when I am still.  Legs float if I change focus or move or twitch -- the nearby bodies tap in while we reorient our nature's.  The idea is to be comfortable.  And it's nighttime.

So what makes a connection?  It's arrows and rings, straight and widening or rings that wrap or twist -- and it's what you see __ and what sees you.

Tap tap.  We've made these agreements.  San Francisco is a cosmopolitan center and so we acknowledge many working systems of signing and moving.   By recognizing groups, you can participate or move out of the way, or drag or get dragged up in it.  Then there's a door.

I move slightly to regain comfort, but instead, only part of my muscle moves, while hands grip my feet.  I lean back and my right leg feels cold and as if it's floating in water, with electrical bzzzts and if I lean left, other body parts respond in tune __ my torso is fixed, with my butt bones anchored on the side of the bed __ twisting up to straighten my back causes my right leg to pull and upper thigh to tighten as if it's been wrapped in spandex or is being held by surrounding rubber.  Move movment, more internal vibration and feet gripping.  A finger brushes under my foot.  The continuum of 5 minutes of movement leaves me more uncomfortable and stuck.  I dare not move greatly unless I'm willing to empathize, negotiate, and be still until morning __ not yet.  

Even though I know the consequence, I continue to believe I can make myself comfortable, but what I'm really supposed to do is make other people comfortable.  Something grasps my groin __ that's synchronicity for you __ if I lift my feet it feels as tho I'm on a bus riding forward __ I've considered meds for motion sickness, but it's not that __ these are other people and should be treated well __ so in comes the importance of the ring or arrow __ what is seen and heard and empathized will help your fellow put and get wants.  And dream woken as we get in and on, up and over.

I'm taxed __ surely it's a tax, a debt, in which one pays or provides work__ in fact, work is the pay _ and wants satisfied is the pay also __ win

Still.. if only it could be like it was, cold __ if it were for that water.  Was it a pesticide as I'd heard? Surely something physical happened to me __ but also metaphysical and wrong place wrong time wrong escape route __ 

I looked up, got out, got lost, got found, didn't follow, got lost again, and here I am.

Nowish at 430a.